I do not know as I can't say it out loud. I perceived goal more than life success, I do not care about how much I'll go far within this life. I may be enough experienced to survived in a modern society, but that still doesn't affects nor makes me feel.. anything at all. However, I do believed that after the end of my existence, I shall not belonged to anyone or be for anyone. I shall be myself, who I always know I am.